Don’t you hate it when this happens?
A new song by Kimbra (who I adore by the way) and Gotye seemed so apt with reference to my recent heartbreak! Okay, maybe not completely apt, but close enough.
But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
I’ve been listening to this song on repeat hoping it’ll generate enough feelings in me to forget this guy. This fabulous guy, who was just perfect for me. He knew it and I knew it, we were perfect but still we couldn’t make it work. Just shows, sometimes, love is just not enough.
What got in the way you ask? I wish I knew. But this post is not about my breakup. This post is about how people deal with break ups. I’ve always been a strong believer of cutting people off. You can never really get over someone unless you fall in love again and you can’t do that unless you stop loving your ex and you can’t do that till you stop meeting them/talking to them/hanging out with them.
But now that I’m on the other side. The hurt party (I’m sure he’s hurting too, or rather, I hope he is), I can tell you this is hell. Every day, I think about him. Every day, I pray that he will call me. Every day, I hope he misses me. Why don’t I just call him? I did, he told me he didn’t think it would work out and that he would call me later. It’s been just over two weeks now and I’m still waiting for that call.
Its odd, how you can share so much with one person and then turn around the next minute and forget about them. I could do this with so much ease, once upon a time. Now, I’m just a mess. I’m obsessing with everything that he could be doing. I think of ways to hurt myself so that he would be forced to come see me. I think of gate crashing into his parties. I think of calling him and telling him I was trying to reach someone else and dialled his number by accident. All sorts of stupid things.
All this for somebody that I used to know. Now he’s just somebody that I used to know.
Photograph via sxc.hu
February 24th, 2012 → 2:07 pm
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